{Quick Reflections 27} Home... 4

I received the following reflection about "home" that I believe is the best, and hence last one, in this series. It was written by a dear sister who prefers to remain anonymous. Enjoy :-)

I kept searching, for the true meaning of things. When I had a family, I kept searching for the true meaning of a family, sisters, brothers, a father, a mother, their roles, their duties and responsibilities... When I loved, I kept searching for the true meaning of love, devotion, sacrifice, giving, friendship... When I worked, I kept searching for the true meaning of work.... and because I am a perfectionist, I was always disappointed for I've never found the true meaning of the things that I searched for.

I kept searching and searching for home. I had a home, a perfect one from a worldly point of view, but not the home I feel inside. I had love and I had lots of it, but not the love I feel inside, I need an Original home, Original feeling, Original love, the Raw Material of such products. In every worldly achievement, once you reach your goal, you feel, it was nothing but a personal desire to achieve success.

Finally, after long search for the truth, I found only One Absolute True meaning, that's Allaah. Allaah is the true home, the true love, the true success, the truth of everything. Allaah is the home where you find security, intimacy and warmth and you pay nothing for having such a home but true belief that He is the home. Allaah is where you find love, unconditioned love. He does not love you because you look good, or you have a good car, or you make good money. He loves you because you are his creation, because you are what you are whatever you are, whoever you were, he loves you. Don't you love the dish you cook yourself; don't you love the dress you sew? Don't you love your son because it's a part of you? Allaah is the true success, for when you succeed to know Him, you succeed in any and every field of life.

I am not nuts neither a Sufi, but it's very healthy that we feel strange in this life. Even our Prophet (SAWS) asked us to feel strange in this life, not to feel so much involved in it's worldly concerns,
115692- أخذ رسول الله صلى الله عليه وسلم بمنكبي فقال : ( كن في الدنيا كأنكغريب أو عابر سبيل(. وكان ابن عمر يقول : إذا أمسيت فلا تنتظر الصباح ، وإذا أصبحت فلا تنتظر المساء ، وخذ من صحتك لمرضك ، ومن حياتك لموتك .
الراوي: عبدالله بنعمر - خلاصة الدرجة: صحيح - المحدث: البخاري - المصدر: الجامع الصحيح - الصفحة أو الرقم: 6416

Why do you think the most beloved human being to Allaah, Muhammad (SAWS), was deprived of a stable home, from his father, his mother, his uncle, his grand father, his most beloved wife Khdeeja, his sons, ... ? why? though he's the most beloved human to Allaah? to know and to let us know that there's only One entity in which you'll find the true home, love and security; simply Allaah.

It's normal that we feel that life's fake. It's normal that we feel that the home we have, the love we live, and everything around is just a blurred picture of the truth. That's because the absolute truth is too strong and too clear to be seen by us, Allaah. That's because the real meaning of things is not here, it's there in Allaah's heaven and haven. My home is where I find Allaah, is where I find my self close to Him, is where I find Him satisfied with me, this is the absolute true meaning of things and the absolute security one can ever have in life and in the hereafter.

Search for Allaah to find your home, your love, your joy, your happiness and your everlasting life in the worldly life and in the afterlife. May Allaah bless us all and allow us to search for Him the way that pleases Him, Ameen.